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Opiates- Vikes, Percs etc |
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I had 4 surgeries to remove neuromas from my feet. I had to have 4 seperate surgeries so basically I was either in surgery, recovering or about to have surgery again for about a year straight. I loved the feeling if the pain killers and the nurse and i flirted a little bit and she ended up giving me way more refills than im sure the doc would have done.
Anyways after recovering from these surgeries i still suffer with massive back pain and a "buddy" of mine asked me if i wanted to buy any vicodins he had a contact "dealer" that he used. I unfortuntaley said yes and eventually started using heavily (up to 10x per day (although only took at night) of high strength). |
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My work requires me to be on a conference call early every morning 7 ET. Several co-workers that are close to me noticed a difference in my ability to communicate. And finally one morning a day after taking about 10 pills and drinking a half a bottle of nyquil I basically nodded off while slurring through the call.
My best friend pulled me of desk and made up an excuse to everyone else that i was sick but then he came to my apt and sat with me and asked me what was up. I promised I would go cold turkey. I handed him my remaining stash of about 400 10mg Perc's.........stayed clean 3 months then same as above happened again. I quit cold turkey again. Now im unfortuntaly in the midst of round 3. |
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Its hard and ongoing. My dealer network was (is) good so these guys are relentless because i was spending at least 3k a month to feed my habit. I just flushed what I hope my last stash for the last time because i have finally come to realize that this is not a life.
And I am not going to have one if I continue to use. The back pain is brutal but im going to yoga 3-4 per week and i think that may actually be a good altenative to my addiction. These pills are so horrible and my recovery is an ongoing process but my motivation this time feels higher than ever before. |
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Dont start. The high that you think feels so wonderful quickly becomes a demon that cannot be controlled. |
